John laid on the floor of the TDE room still in extreme pain as the memories continued to flood into his mind. He could see objects in the room beginning to form where there had once been nothing. He attempted to pull himself to his feet in order to better ascertain the situation he was in but once John got to his knee’s the pain in his head became excruciating again and he fell back to the ground as history continued to be rewritten in his mind.
It had been 6 months since John had last spoken with Catherine Weaver. In that time John had been able to join the human resistance. While he was not a ranking member of the resistance he had rapidly become known as one of the best soldiers they had ever seen. Many times he worked closely with Kyle and Derek on missions. However, this also at times put him in close contact with Alison Young. If dealing with the emotions of working around his father and uncle were not enough John felt extremely disheartened whenever he worked with Alison. While he felt an extreme sense of obligation to protect her, John also felt compelled to push her away at the same time due to some twisted sense of guilt he felt towards Cameron. John felt that he was being torn apart by just being around Alison. Every time he saw Alison he saw Cameron.
John laid on his cot with his eyes closed attempting to sleep. It had been a particular hard day. John, Alison, and several other soldiers had encountered a ground HK while on a reconnaissance mission about 21 miles north west of the resistance base. Several soldiers had been killed and Alison herself would have been killed if it hadn’t been for the fact that John had gone against his own Sergeants orders and gone back for her. This had highly displeased Sgt. Hudson and John felt that he would inevitably be having a discussion with Kyle or Derek about it soon enough. By this point John felt himself almost never able to sleep for very long if at all anymore. It was not due to the fact that there was a constant threat of danger around him but due to the emotional drain and torment that was constantly being put on John. It all had begun to take its toll on him. When John had been in the past he had learned how to cope with being around Derek and how to deal with his emotions in that situation. However, in the future, it all felt different, there was so much more to deal with now. John now worked with his own father and could not tell him all that he wanted to and further complicating the matter was Alison. John purposely did everything he could to avoid her while at the same time trying to do everything he could to protect her. John sighed as he continued to lie on his cot trying to give his tormented mind some rest.
“John…” a gentle voice spoke. John grimaced immediately knowing exactly who it was. John opened his eyes to see Alison standing at the foot of his bed.
“Did I wake you?” She asked, John was silent for a moment then responded,
“No, you’re fine…I wasn’t asleep.” The strange uneasiness between the two still lingering as they looked at each other, it had always been there from the moment John had met her. Alison as well had always felt that there was something John was not telling her and she could feel that he purposefully kept his distance from her but she did not understand why. In light of John’s recent actions it confused her even further.
“General Reese wants to see you.” Alison said as she stood looking at John. He nodded and got out of bed. John walked past Alison without saying a word and with a solemn look on his face.
“John…” Alison said after he finished walking past her. John halted but remained with his back to her. “Thank you for what you did for me today.” John stood quietly for a moment still with his back to Alison trying to think of something to say. After what felt like several seconds John finally spoke,
“Yeah…no problem” John said in a quiet voice, then continued to walk away from Alison.
“You want to explain to me why you directly disobeyed the order of a commanding officer?” Derek said as he leaned up against the wall to his room looking at John. John thought for a moment. He really had no answer but knew he should give a response.
“I felt like there was still a chance to save her.” he said. Derek thought for a moment,
“Look John, I’m glad that we got her back, she’s a good soldier and we need all the help we can get but that was just crazy what you did.” Derek continued, “We’re all a little crazy for fighting this war but Sgt. Hudson has said that you’ve been pushing the limit more so than you normally do.” John sat quietly as Derek spoke, “Is there something going on with you?” Derek asked.
“No, sir.” John responded, “I just felt that I couldn’t leave her behind.” Derek looked at John with a slightly intrigued look.
“Is there something going on between you two that I need to know about?”
“NO!” John said almost yelling which surprised Derek slightly. “I mean, No, sir. She’s just a fellow soldier, I thought she deserved a chance.” Derek thought for another moment still trying to determine John's motives.
“Alright, I believe you. But look you're one of my best soldiers and I need all the help I can get, especially now.” John was slightly confused by Derek’s response,
“What was so important about now?” John thought to himself. Derek nodded his head slightly and then spoke,
“Alright kid, go get some rest.” John stood and saluted Derek who gave him a salute back. John then turned to walk out of the room, then he stopped before reaching the door,
“General, can I ask a question?”
“Sure go ahead.” Derek responded.
“What’s so important about Topanga? We’ve been hitting that area pretty hard with recon and surveillance.” Derek thought for a moment.
“I can’t tell you that yet…You’ll know soon enough though.” John stood confused for a moment but knew not to ask anything further. He turned and walked out of the room. As John exited the room he saw Kyle walking in. John saluted,
“Colonel Reese.” he said, Kyle returned the salute,
“Connor…” Kyle said in a slightly emotionless tone as he walked past John.
Kyle sat down at a chair in Derek’s room. He motioned with his thumb back towards the hallway where John had just been.
“You figure out what’s going on with that kid yet?” Derek shook his head.
“No, not yet.” Kyle shook his head as well.
“He kills metal like a mad man but damn what the hell was he thinking today?”
“I have no idea. He said he had to know for sure if Alison was still alive or not.” Derek said. Kyle thought for a moment,
“Well God knows we need him, especially if we’re gonna pull off this next attack.” Derek nodded his head. “Did you find out where it may be?” Kyle asked.
“Our recon patrol gave us a pretty good idea. It‘s a safe bet that Skynet is hiding it somewhere in that cannon.” Kyle took a breath before speaking,
“This is gonna be one hell of a battle.”
“Yes it is.” Derek sighed while rubbing his hand across the back of his neck before speaking again. “Last report I got said we’re gonna be completely out’a resources in six months.”
“What about the other bases?” Kyle responded.
“They’re gonna be finished long before we are.” Derek ground his teeth in a moment of anger. “We’re gonna lose this war unless something happens fast…” Kyle nodded his head as he looked down at the floor.
“Yes, we are.”
Authors Notes: Okay I hope you guys are liking the internal conflict that is going on inside of John. Review away!